1 year after ending our fertility journey

It's been just over a year since we decided to end our fertility treatment. It was a really hard decision to make, especially as we were preparing to do a 5th round.

Do I regret it?

No, but I do regret not forcing an earlier endometriosis/fibroids/adenomyosis diagnosis. I spent 12 years having 10 surgeries to temporarily 'fix' my issues e.g. remove any visible endometriosis, separate any scar tissue. I believed it would fix my issues every single time. Spoiler alert! Every surgery and every treatment e.g. Zoladex, Prostap, Clomid made my periods so much worse. They were unbearable. Every round of IVF made my periods a lot worse too. Neither of us regret ending our fertility journey because it was too hard mentally and physically. Also, there were so many things against us e.g. my uterine lining was too thin. I would've needed surgery to temporarily fix my issues again. . . It just felt very negative.

It goes back further though

Instead of investigating my period problems, my GP put me on the pill at a young age. I wish I'd pushed for a proper diagnosis, instead of staying on the pill, and remaining unaware of the potential issues I was about to face.

"It's a sad story, not a sad life."

I'm always thinking about this quote by @Bloomingwithcare. Yes I still get triggered by pregnancy announcements, and feel a bit cringey at being labelled as 'child-less' but overall, I'm trying my best to live life. I'm really trying not to be sad.

I'm putting energy into writing about my health journey when I can. I feel like I've really built up a great network of followers. Thank you for following me! I'm also looking after my mum on her dementia journey, and preparing to get back into the world of work (it's hard!).

#infertility #endometriosis #awareness #fibroids #chronic #period #pain #menorrhagia #cnbc